It seems almost trite to pen those words when I am almost 40 years old now (well, in 2 1/2 years)... But, we all start the journey of believing in ourselves and what God has called us to at different points in our lives. Instead of worrying over whether I have arrived before or after "most people" do, I will just conclude that I know what I believe and that I have begun to believe what I know.
Almost immediately upon the realization that I believe what I know about God, about me, and about the world in which I live, I felt this thrust toward action... I see my faith becoming part of all my actions... You may have heard that "Faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you do not see" and I can honestly say my life is a reflection of that. "Not that I have obtained it or already have been made perfect, but I press on in order to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me! But this one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on to the goal to win the prize for God has called me..."
So many things in my life are not as they should be. As my Mother would say, "your ducks are not in a row!" I am in the middle of so many trials in which I have no control, over their outcomes or even the timing in which the trials will cease. Yet, for the first time I can remember in my Heart Walk with God, I believe /have faith / trust and am walking in that belief-- REGARDLESS of my present circumstance. It is liberating and exhilarating, empowering and humbling, all at the same time...
So let me close this with a huge praise to our God for first steps... of all kinds!!!
Hdc
